In the morning, I read the last pages of Nietzsche’s The Use and Abuse of History — now the 32nd book I read in 2020. I was happy at first, but, when I entered Goodreads to add it, I saw that I was three books behind schedule to hit my target of 48 books in 2020.
I went to the pile of unread books I have in my bedroom to choose the next book, but I got a little depressed.
One can never read enough. There is always more to read. It’s impossible to become Faustus.
And why am I reading? Why am I trying so hard to consume as many books as possible? Who am I racing or competing with? There are few people I know who read more than I do anyway. So what am I trying to achieve here?
Maybe I should slow down, read less but more carefully, write more… Think more, live more…
To acquire knowledge has been my only goal in life so far. I always wanted to know everything about everything, which is kind of — childish.
What is knowledge good for? (Foucault would say, “for cutting.”) Moreover, what am I good for?
Who do I want to be?