Have a Cigar: Don Rafa Churchill

Name: Don Rafa Churchill

Country: Nicaragua

Shape: Parejo

Size: Churchill (7 inches x 50)

Strength: Medium

I woke up with a hangover,
ready to work on another hangover.
I am like a Sisyphus whose bottle refills
every time it is emptied.

This is my life, then.
This is where I am now.
Madness cannot be very far from here.
You can see that in my sunken eyes —
how exhausted I am!
And burned out. And bored out.

In between hangovers, there is some
suffering
and a lot of drinking.
In between hangovers, there is the life
that I never wanted… except
the love story that’s being written.

I smoke cigars, too, when I drink.
Most of the times, the cheapest cigars I can find.
Sometimes,
cigars that burn like Shakespeare’s plays in a fireplace.

And you can smell the fire in my beard
and all the verses I have burned
under the open sky.

When I drink, I like to have a pen
and a notebook in close proximity, too.
But I see how this may mislead the onlooker.

You must never mistake me for a poet
even if you see me scribble
and spit out words like active volcanoes spit out lava.

Where I come from, poems give birth to themselves.
The poet is the drunkard who happens to be there when that happens.

Where I come from, the poet has not mastered the language.
On the contrary, he has given up on language;
he merely uses it out of boredom,
distorts it, abuses it…

Where I come from, the poem is only read by the poet
who will forget
everything.

In the morning, nothing will exist but a hangover
that means nothing at all.

Umnum Bond Cigar Review

Have a Cigar: Umnum Bond

Name: Umnum Bond

Country: Nicaragua

Shape: Parejo

Size: Petit Corona (4 1/2 inches x 44)

Strength: Medium

Earthy, woody, with hints of coffee, I smoked this petit corona on my terrace one afternoon when I was too morose to think clearly or do anything else. Sometimes, a thirty-minute break with a good cigar is all I need to feel better. Smoking alone helps me think. It helps me find solutions to work problems and life problems. It also reminds me that I need to take things slow.

The Umnum Bond is one of those cigars you want to have with you in your car or in your pocket because you never know when you’ll get or need that thirty-minute break.

I like this stick precisely because its taste is unassuming. It is what it is, a straightforward cigar. It doesn’t require your attention. It’s like a friend who is only there because you need them.

August 24, 2021: “Good Morning, Nightmare.”

Good morning, nightmare.
Work begins in 30 minutes.

I’m in my flip-flops, standing near the stove, waiting for the water to boil.
I’m holding a mug that contains grains of instant coffee and sands of time.
A spoon leans idly in the mug.
When the time comes, it will stir up things.
But not now.

Work
from
home.

Work
starts
now.

Silent mode: off.
A big mistake.
I start receiving notifications.
“I am following up on…”
“I am waiting for the…”
“When will we be able to…”
“Can you please…”
“It’s urgent.”

I wish I could find a way out
of this dystopia.

Silent mode: on.
A bad idea.
But it will give me five minutes
to be myself.