Smoking a cigar while reading philosophy. The Cigar is La Aroma Del Cariba Base Line Immensa. The book is Aristotle's Rhetoric.

Have a Cigar: La Aroma Del Caribe Base Line Immensa

Name: La Aroma Del Caribe Base Line Immensa

Country: Nicaragua

Shape: Parejo

Size: Gordo (5 1/2 inches x 60)

Strength: Medium to Full

La Aroma Del Caribe Base Line Immensa is a Nicaraguan cigar that I enjoy smoking occasionally while reading or hanging out with friends.

It is big, beautiful, and aromatic. And, as far as I’m concerned, it is everything a cigar should be.

The main aromas it dispenses are dark chocolate, leather, cedar, earth, walnut, and dark roast coffee. I like to pair it with American coffee, sweet cocktails, and blended Scotch whiskies.

April 2, 2022: To Find or To Lose Yourself

I was organizing my bookshelves when one of the books slipped and fell to the floor. It was Friedrich Nietzsche’s The Genealogy of Morals. I picked it up, opened it, and read the first lines of the preface: “We are unknown, we knowers, ourselves to ourselves: this has its own good reason. We have never searched for ourselves — how should it then come to pass, that we should ever find ourselves.”

‘What he says is true,’ I said. ‘Although, I remember a time when I was out there searching for myself. That’s how I spent my twenties, looking for purpose and the meaning of life, trying to figure out whether I was born to be a rockstar or an entrepreneur. But every discovery I made I drowned in whisky. And I had a good reason to do so: I did not like what I found.’

Today, I’m thirty-four, and I still don’t know who I am or what my purpose is.

The meaninglessness of everything demotivates me, though it doesn’t stop me from living my life to the fullest. I often manage to forget my inescapable, inevitable death and the absurdity of life, and I manage to enjoy the moment.

But that’s not the point. That’s not the point, at all.

Maybe we — knowers or not — can never find ourselves.

I don’t know…

On the other hand, sometimes, the goal seems to be the exact opposite — to lose yourself, to get lost, to be intoxicated by life and lose control, to let go, to drown in the sea of forgetfulness and become one with the forgotten.

Have a Cigar: Davidoff Escurio Corona Gorda

Name: Davidoff Escurio Corona Gorda

Country: Dominican Republic

Shape: Parejo

Size: (6 inches x 46)

Strength: Medium to Full

This cigar tastes like petrichor
and the cool afternoon shade of a tall tree by the river
mixed with the sweat of a hard-working man
accompanied by the aroma of hand-picked coffee beans
and cedar
and hints of pink peppercorn.

It tastes like the last storm of March
and the mud of early April.